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Rainy days & Mommas (Mother’s Day 2011)

It was raining so hard yesterday, I lay down beside you and instantly fell asleep.

How could I not?

I’m wrapped around the warm and comforting embrace of my Mama dear… one of my real-life superheroes.

 I love you, Mama.

Mwah! Mwah! Mwah!

No matter how old we get… we will always be little babies in our mother’s arms.

Happy Mother’s day to all the mothers!

You are Heaven-sent! Cheers for doing a great job! 🙂

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Posted by on May 9, 2011 in Pamilya, Personal


Someday… One day

“I’d call you again.” said the voice on the other end.

That was more than a year ago, 436 days to be exact (go do the math!), since the last time we’ve talked, or you called, I should say. Just that… you said you’d call again. It was enough to inspire me the entire day. I waited. A day has passed but you still haven’t called. After several days, I was still waiting. I waited and waited and waited and waited like the waves reaching untiringly for the shore every single moment of the day.

I even tried to get in touch with you but to no avail.

Days went by like an abyss that pulled me deep into the sea of uncertainty. I heard nothing from you and bit by bit, I lost sight of the shore leaving me like a raft in the middle of an ocean, drifting… wrecked and lost.


Why didn’t you call? Why didn’t you even bother to say goodbye? It could have been the dot that ended whatever it is that we have started. It could have been a compass that guided me to a new direction. It could have saved me from the excruciating battle between expecting and forgetting.

Now, more than a year has passed, I’m no longer expecting you would still call and I have chosen to forget, no, not the beautiful and sweet memories with you but the unbearable pain of a shattered spirit that even counting the tears that fell was useless because it’s immeasurable as the water in the sea.

But it doesn’t matter now because I have accepted that things happen for a reason. Maybe saying goodbye to each other is not meant to happen (yet). Who knows, maybe one day, we’ll bump into each other again. I don’t know, but there’s one thing I am sure of… I can never deny the fact that you have been and will always be a wonderful part of my life’s journey. I can only be grateful to God for that.

As my heart is now calmed by the sight of the lighthouse, I know one day when our paths cross again, I can surely say to you that I am still that someone you considered friend.

Thank you, Yab… Sleepy Head!

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Posted by on April 30, 2011 in Balik-tanaw, Pag-ibig, Pagkakaibigan, Personal


next page…

Wow! I missed my hide-out! Maybe you guys are wondering whether or not I lost my ideas or my drive for writing. No, its just that there are some things that keep me away from doing it lately.

This is just some of them…


😀 Hmmm, Parang may kulang?!!! 😀



After finishing my Masters Degree in June, I was so excited because at last! I now have the pleasure of doing the things I missed doing like traveling on long weekends, kite flying by the beach, stargazing, signing up in a photography class, catching up with friends, watching DVDs at home or reading the books I bought a long time ago which I haven’t flipped not a single page. 😦

My ‘to-do’ list is infinite but the excitement was suddenly bent because weeks after I took the comprehensive exam, my boss asked me to pursue further training on a field only few dare set foot on… FIELD  EPIDEMIOLOGY.

She must be kidding! But apparently, she’s NOT! For days, I thought of a hundred and one reasons to say no because I don’t think I deserve to be on that ground.

One day, upon seeing and maybe feeling I was unsure about what I am getting myself into, an officemate told me, “You know, you should always welcome change because you just don’t know how much opportunities it can open up for you! Grab every opportunity while you are still young. You have to listen to our boss, she has a better view from the top.”

With those seemingly encouraging words in mind plus my family’s advice and support, I finally let go and uttered my sweetest “YES!” Yes, I took the challenge and the opportunity glued to it (I hope!) and eventhough it means leaving my mother unit for two years and spending time in a new workplace for the training.

Equipped with my stock stuck knowledge, a little experience, a lot of guts and gazillion of prayers, I went out of my comfort room zone and headed into the ‘war zone’.

It has been almost 4 months since I went into the war zone. (20 more grueling months to go!) I realized that it’s  more than just learning the ropes of Field Epidemiology , it’s also a road to self- discovery because…

I have to rip off my present being to face my fear of the huge unknown.

To bore a hole in my heart so I can see the depth of its strength,

so I can understand the boundaries of its existence,

so I can learn how to LOVE what I so HATE.

It may seem crazy.

It is.

For the sake of keeping the nation’s wealth… PUBLIC HEALTH.



The next pages of my life will be devoted in finding answers to  questions epidemiologists often ask:

Who, What, When, Where, Why and How


Field Epi is a challenge and a blessing.

A challenge I can’t do all by myself that is why I’m facing it with God and I need His grace every single step of the way.

A blessing that made me realize how thankful I should be for having a very supportive and loving family, good friends and encouraging mentors from my mother unit.



Posted by on December 10, 2010 in Buhay-buhay, Makibaka, Personal


my perfect fan

i may not be famous,

i may only have a spoonful of friends in my facebook account, and

i  may not have a lot of followers in this page and not even one on twitter,


i do have a perfect fan who claps in my simplest achievement (cleaning my room), who is always excited to tell stories about me to her friends (i hate it when she does this), who collects pictures of me since day 1 of my life until this very day and brings it with her everywhere she goes, who screams in so much laughter even with my corniest jokes, who loves to read my raw works which i often left unknowingly in between the pages of the books i read, who sees me beyond my imperfections and loves me even more….

my perfect fan, my ever- loving MAMA!

I can never thank her enough for all the love and sacrifices she has to endure for the family!

this song is for her.

The Perfect Fan 

It takes a lot to know what is love

It’s not the big things, but the little things
That can mean enough
A lot of prayers to get me through
And there is never a day that passes by
I don’t think of you
You were always there for me
Pushing me and guiding me
Always to succeed

You showed me
When I was young just how to grow
You showed me
Everything that I should know
You showed me
Just how to walk without your hands
Cuz mom you always were
The perfect fan

God has been so good
Blessing me with a family
Who did all they could
And I’ve had many years of grace
And it flatters me when I see a smile on your face
I wanna thank you for what you’ve done
In hopes I can give back to you
And be the perfect son


You showed me how to love
You showed me how to care
And you showed me that you would always be there
I wanna thank you for that time
And I’m proud to say you’re mine


Cuz mom you always were,
Mom you always were
Mom you always were,
You know you always were
Cuz mom you always were… the perfect fan

I love you Mom


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Posted by on May 9, 2010 in Buhay-buhay, Personal